I forgot. While we drove to Toronto I hit number seven in my Roll Up The Rim To Lose streak.

We now return you to your regularly scheduled surfing.

Funny how I can swing from, �Why do we let ourselves become burdened, stressed, concerned with what’s wrong in our lives? What does it – any of it – matter in the end? What it all comes down to is you, your friends, your family; your level of peace, the love you feel: what’s right on your life� to �I feel so wrung out that I don�t think I can do it any more. I hate feeling like this, because I feel like I�m letting people down […] I keep telling myself that being miserable builds character. You know what? It’s not a heck of a lot of fun while you’re at it. I’d rather have fun again.�

I think my problem is I�ve forgotten how to have fun. Or I haven�t learned how to have new fun, since the old stuff doesn�t do it for me any more.

I�m really getting tired.

Star Wars on Saturday, though! New Star Wars (NSW), the sequel to Real Star Wars (RSW), which was so named to distinguish it from the Ep1 hype that became unavoidable halfway through the campaign.

My Protection seminar went quite well on Tuesday night; in two weeks I teach a Basic Spellcasting (in which I clear up a lot of misconceptions) and there are eight (!) people signed up for it. Eep!

On top of that, my Designing Rituals seminar was such a success that I have been asked to teach it privately to a local group. I�m stunned.

Teaching is fun. Work, but fun. And orchestra last night was fun � except that I had actually practised the dreadful Bizet and all the hard bits from the Schubert, and when I got there we were given three new pieces of music: Mozart�s 26th, Beethoven�s 1st, and Rossini�s Semiramis overture. Any Beethoven is incredibly satisfying to play, and the Mozart was fun too. Rossini is a blast to listen to, but a pain to perform, I discovered last night. With concentration and work (ick!) I can tell that it will be satisfying too. (I just wish they could have chosen something like the overture to La Cenerentola, or La scala di seta, or La gazza ladra.) I am, however, much happier overall if we�ll be sticking to these.

So maybe I just haven�t figured out what qualifies as �fun� in my ever-evolving microcosm. Other than NSW, that is. And Buffy.