I saw The Matrix again last night, and if/when I ever take on personal students for this whole spirituality thing, it will be one of two assigned viewings, along with The Empire Strikes Back. Why? Because it talks about the nature of reality, and how you can affect it once you�ve broken out of the preconceived notion of how things work. It�s all about the Force; it�s all about understanding that the Matrix is a construct. Absolutely fascinating.
I also saw SWEp2 this week, for the second time. I don�t know; maybe my expectations were much, much lower than my first viewing, but I enjoyed it more this time. Yes, the acting is horrible; yes, Lucas can�t write dialogue to save his life; yes, the two key leads have absolutely no chemistry whatsoever (gives a whole new meaning to �We�d be living a lie!�), but the overall storyline (i.e. the discovery of two armies being positioned to take over � er, help the Republic, yes, help them, I mean) is decent. Too bad the ultimate execution of that storyline is a hatchet job.
I taught the first part of a two-session class last night, and once again, I feel like I didn�t get through to them. There were questions throughout the workshop, but overall I get the feeling that they were unimpressed. The first half of this class is a lot of information, in preparation for the nuts and bolts next week, and it was apparently interesting and new to most of them, judging from their reactions� and yet, they left giving off an air of �this isn�t what I wanted�.
Teaching is an excellent way to discover that you didn�t know as much as you thought you knew. Well, that�s not exactly what I mean, but it does feel like that at times. Allow me to rephrase the thought: Teaching challenges you to redefine what you thought you understood perfectly well. There�s always someone who asks a slightly skewed question, and when you answer it you have to sit and think for a moment, and then try to express what basically amounts to a feeling or a belief in new words. It�s especially sensitive when it comes to a personal perception of magic and spirituality, because, as the colloquialism says, your mileage may vary. Actually, in such an intensely personal experiential situation, your mileage will vary. Your experiences with how your thoughts flow, and your perception of how the world around you functions, will be vastly different from the next person�s. We�re lucky we can communicate at all, or agree on anything; I think the amount of compromise we tacitly allow would surprise us all if we broke things down and really managed to compare worldviews.
The main problem lies in the fact that students expect a cut-and-dried, tried-and-true method that will work no matter what, and I can�t give it to them. I can tell them what works for me, but I have to stress that without experimentation, they won�t know what works for them as well. Most people seem to think I�m hiding wisdom of the ages from them when I don�t hand them a solution tied up with a pretty bow, and they can get quite snippy. I know the human mind is innately lazy, and I know we shy away from work, but honestly, you get back what you put in. If you take the time to meditate on your personality, and how you truly perceive the world, and how you interact with it, then you will be better equipped to choose more efficient and successful ways to make changes in your life.
Or maybe that�s just me. Maybe there is a way to �hey presto� it all, and no one�s told me yet. Wow. That would really invalidate all my workshops, wouldn�t it?