You may have noticed that I�ve been rather silent these past few days.

Darn right! I told myself I wasn�t going to sit at my computer all weekend, since it was so beautiful, and since I sit at a computer all week. I’m very proud of myself: apart from a short trip here to check email on Sunday morning, I didn�t touch it.

Then yesterday, after my hiatus from surfing and typing, I checked the on-line job postings for summer teaching positions at the local CEGEPs like I�m supposed to do every day. Eep! They�re up! They�ve been up for four days and I hadn�t been checking!

Well, my stomach sank and I panicked. Job postings only go up for a week; you have to have your application in by the end or you�ve missed it. The deadline is this Friday. After telling myself that it�s an essential step towards submitting applications for fall teaching positions, and taking a walk to clear my head, I was ready. By the end of the day I�d retooled my C.V. (again), written a short cover letter, and asked for a reference letter from someone with whom I�m currently freelance teaching. I�ll expand the cover letter to point out how suitable I am and how appropriate this freelance teaching is, then drop it off on Thursday on my lunch break. Then they�ll fall in love with my C.V., call me for an interview, and offer me a job.

I�ve been psyching myself up for this for a couple of months now. I don�t think I ever expected it to actually happen, for some reason.

Why does change have to be so difficult?