Monthly Archives: September 2006

Brief Liam Update

We have been pretty miserable here for the past few days. Liam’s been waking up every two to three hours at night in full howling end-of-world mode. Sometimes we can get him back to sleep, sometimes not. This morning began at 4.30, and the three of us walked through the day like zombies. The appetite is more miss than hit. So he’s a crank because his food and sleep are off, and we’re cranky because he’s not eating or sleeping normally, which means we’re not sleeping properly. Plus the fact that he’s a crank wears us down too.

He’s still a good kid. He’s just going through something, whether it’s teething or working out a new schedule for himself with only one nap, or working through night terrors. We’re just very, very tired, and out of energy to deal with pretty much anything.

However:

New words this week: “peekaboo”, “socks”, and the sound of a rooster crowing.

New food: leeks. (The verdict? Pretty decent.)

New actions: waving bye-bye when people are actually saying bye-bye, fitting two single MegaBloks together, opening the crank-powered windows in his room, setting bath ducks on a shelf. There are more, I’m just so wiped I can’t think of them.

And a new photo for you all, because it’s been a while:

(Scarlet had brought down some Harry Potter stickers that day, and Liam had one on his forehead for a few hours. In some way it feels like we’ve come full circle from this photo!)

Today he played my cello (remarkably well; I moved my fingers to make different notes, and he bowed), and played HRH’s bodhran for the first time too.

I was in bed at six last night. Tonight I may make it all the way till eight.

ESTC Update

Total word count, ESTC: 32,131
Total words yesterday and today: 1,444

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
32,131 / 50,000
(64.3%)

The week is not getting better. With Liam’s regular homecare person away on vacation, I’ve been recruiting friends to come play with him for a couple of hours while I try to work. Apart from the average daily quota on Wednesday, yesterday was pretty much a failure thanks to Liam being cranky and clingy and spending most of his time hanging over the child gate in my office doorframe crying for me. This morning I discovered that my mother in law wasn’t expecting to watch Liam today, as he’s also going over there tomorrow, and I had a moment of sheer panic wondering if I would get any work done at all this week other than those two hours Wednesday afternoon. She rallied, however, and has taken him for a few hours so that I can get something done. Stricken from the list of things to do today as an unfortunate result were a nap (Liam’s been waking up two to four times throughout the nights recently, and HRH sleeps right through it), and the purchasing of a new ink cartridge for the printer and a pair of jeans that fit. The shower is going to happen, though, come what may.

On top of it all, Liam appears to be showing every classic sign of beginning to teethe again: rashes, excessive drool and the accompanying cough, incessant chewing, the night wakings…. Can we just have some time out, please?

In general, things have been working up to a point where I would like to scream. Perhaps cry, or some sort of similar expression of frustration. My so-called vacation is a mountain of work, and the next weekend trip might not even happen thanks to bad scheduling. I have a wild urge to throw everything I agreed to organise and do back at the people for whom I’m doing it, and telling them all to deal with it themselves.

I did have a nice evening out last night: Pasley and I went to see The Illusionist, which was a beautifully made film. I enjoyed it a lot.

I’ve done a few hundred words today and that’s going to have to be enough, because I have other stuff piling up that’s due this weekend and next week for various commitments, and I have no other time in which to do them. And I have to go pick the boy up early.

Once More Unto The Breach, etc.

Jan arrived for her afternoon with Liam, and whisked him off for a walk.

The first thing I did once alone, even before sitting down at the computer, was clean the bathroom, because somewhere between yesterday and today it went from “the bathroom needs to be cleaned this weekend” to “I have to clean this bathroom RIGHT NOW”.

I feel much better.

Also cleaned the fishtank earlier, and am drying apple slices. Am on roll. Go me.

ESTC Update

Ugh. Have been having a Bad Week, and a Particularly Bad Day.

Nonetheless:

Total word count, ESTC: 30,687
Total words today: 1,684

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
30,687 / 50,000
(61.4%)

This is completely and totally due to Ceri taking Liam duty for three hours this afternoon. Well, that and the research I did at 4.30 this morning. (The Particularly Bad Day began then, and I had to do something other than lie awake and stare at the ceiling, wishing I was asleep.) I have absolutely no idea how over sixteen hundred words appeared in my manuscript — it occured to me that I may have copied three pages into another chapter instead of cutting and pasting, but I can’t seem to find it — but I’m not going to turn them away. I’m at that point in the book where I’m adding little things all over because the bulk of each chapter is done, and that never feels like I’m writing a large amount.

Orchestra tonight. I’m so tired that I can’t even remember what we’re playing.

ESTC Update

Total word count, ESTC: 29,003
Total words today: 3,443

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
29,003 / 50,000
(58.0%)

Four and a half pages on miscarriage, two and a half on bed rest, two on infant hospitalization, five on a ritual to help spiritually and emotionally release a failed pregnancy. And you wonder why I was avoiding the chapter on grief? Soon I get to write a requiem ritual. The fun never stops.

Part of me wants to write another sixty words to hit 3,500 today, but I’ve spent the last forty-five minutes saying, “I’ll just write X more words to hit this nifty close round number” over and over. My back hurts, and there’s the boy to go fetch. And hmm, I’m hungry.

Today’s amusing typos: Germanium essential oil helps soothe stress. (That’s likely to amuse the original membership of the Nebula Book Club.) And then there was the right to greve, which is probably only funny if you live in a francophone city where various unions go on strike regularly.

Baby Hurricane!

We had a lovely time with Arthur and Curtana yesterday. Liam was a little reserved at first when Arthur arrived and dove straight into the toys, but by lunchtime they were passing food back and forth.

Together they managed to go through the house like a miniature tag-team hurricane, pulling every single toy out and most of the books down from the shelves. I’ve never seen every toy on the floor before. It’s rather frightening. Liam doesn’t have a lot of toys, but the toys he does have are sets of things — two sets of blocks, two sets of balls, stacking cups, two Fisher Price vehicles with their attending Little People — so when they’re all out of their storage they spread out. Plus there were the stuffed animals that we keep trying to stop people from giving to us. (Actually, people have generally listened to our plea for no stuffies, but Liam keeps adding some of my stuffed animals to his, like my fox and my Eeyore and my puffin, so his collection is expanding and mine is shrinking.)

In general, Liam only has three or four things out at a time. But all in all, two small baskets and two shelves in the living room made a scary tempest of toys. Time to go through those two little baskets and condense them into one, I think, and get rid of the toys he played with when he was younger and doesn’t really play with any more.

At some point I’d like to actually talk to Curtana in a grown-up fashion — about the things she’s studied, what she’s worked on, gaming and reading and so forth — but I was absolutely dead by the time they arrived yesterday, thanks to washing the kitchen floor three times in a row (once because it was kind of sticky, once because Liam had managed to snag the tea cosy and pull it down… along with the teapot full of cold tea inside it, and once because he managed to knock a kitchen chair into the cats’ water and food dishes and spilled them everywhere), and I was fascinated by how the two boys played in different ways, and interacted. The teaming up to trap the cat in the bedroom, beaming at her from either side of the bed, was particularly amusing.

I’ve got a lot of work to do today to cover what didn’t get done on Wednesday. I’m at an odd point with this MS: I’ve got about sixty percent down in each chapter (yes, yes, except for Chapter Two, that gets done last; and the chapter about dealing with grief, which I don’t particularly want to deal with myself so I keep skipping over the two pages of it that exist), and now I have to try to see what isn’t there yet and ought to be. Unlike the spellcraft book, when I wake up in the morning I don’t already have an idea of what topic I want to work on that day, so when I sit down to work I scan through the file to see what catches my interest. There have been an awful lot of days recently where nothing does. Not because it’s uninteresting, simply because I don’t actively feel like working on the topics in this book just now. (I secretly want to be writing a Regency comedy of manners. No plot, no clearly defined characters, and certainly no time. It’s simply what I want to be writing for some reason.)

I may just roll a d10 and work on the chapter whose number randomly comes up.