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Technology Makes Our lives Easier! No, Really!

Good morning, world. This is a brief update to let you know that my computer is imploding and hardware failure is imminent; I just don’t know how imminent. It could be the motherboard, it could be the hard drive, and it could be in the next five minutes, or five weeks from now. (But I’d have to deal with frequent freezing, cold reboots, and crashes over those five weeks, so my patience will likely wear out long, long before then.)

Thank heavens I bought the external hard drive and backed up all my documents, music, and pictures already. I’m backing up my mail (not the current stuff, I already did that; I’m backing up the old, old, old stuff now) and have already backed up my bookmarks. Once that’s done, it can crash and burn; I don’t care. Well, I will care a bit, because it will interrupt my routine and it will cost money. But at least I won’t panic about having lost anything, crucial or otherwise.

Time to start talking to my tech consultants, AKA Blade and ADZO.

I Call A Do-Over On Today

Today the computer crashed three times in a row when I tried to boot it up. I managed to get it going in safe mode and snatched a copy of the copy-edit file so I’d have it just in case, because I’d forgotten to e-mail it to myself at the end of the work day on Monday. It’s only crashed twice since then, but it’s gotten stuck or hung up three other times. The boy was resistant about being dropped off this morning, my errands took an hour longer than I expected them to, and the rest of the day has to happen sooner rather than later because both HRH and I are booked at rehearsals tonight, so the boy has to be in bed before we leave, which is a half hour earlier than I usually leave on Wednesday nights. So I lost the entire morning, as the computer didn’t begin behaving till noon, and then I had three days of email to wade through. I may do a chapter or two of copy-edits, or I may give my crankiness and stress a break by doing some longhand hearthcraft work instead. I have three work days after today in which to finish the last half of the copy-edits (two of those are full days in which I don’t have to take the boy to whoever is caring for him that day or pick him up), and working on them today may not be the best of plans as I am very tired, achy, and headache-ridden. I don’t know if I can get into the proper headspace or if I have the reserves of energy to deal with them, or if it’s even worth the attempt. I have a very strong suspicion that it might do more harm than good. So research and notes for the hearthcraft book it is.

For those awaiting news resulting from the doctor’s appointment on Monday… there was no doctor’s appointment. I got there for three, sat there for an hour, then got up and asked the receptionist to reschedule my appointment for next week, because I had to leave to go downtown and pick the boy up from daycare. And good thing I did, because it took me an hour to get there. The receptionist was distressed because I’d gone all the way out there for nothing (sixty kilometre round trip, remember) and kept trying to find a way to slip me in between other appointments, but I wasn’t having any of that; all except two of the other people had been there longer than I had, after all. Also, I was getting claustrophobic in the miniature waiting room that had three car seats, three infants, and nine adults in it, and was growing increasingly stressed by it all. Driving all the way back out next Tuesday morning, even with the boy in tow, was infinitely preferable.

Recent news: The boy has acquired two new nicknames. We visited the LLO all-day dress rehearsal last Saturday after his nap and he had a wonderful time in the very back of the theatre with me, singing and marching and dancing ( “Come on, Mama! We have to hop!”) along with what was happening on the stage. He was remarkably well-behaved (despite my concerns that he would disturb people, and the occasional loud “Dada!” he would chirp whenever HRH would walk on stage to consult with someone about positions, which seemed to amuse people more than anything else) and we managed to stay all the way to the end of Act One, at which point we scampered home for a belated dinner, bath, and bedtime. The cast, who knows HRH by his sobriquet of Bear, began to refer to him as Little Bear. (This will, I know, amuse Bodhifox to no end, because now my son is known by not one but both the nicknames his own two children carry.) This new nickname came hard on the heels of HRH beginning to refer to the boy as HLH, or His Little Highness.

Yesterday the boy drew a very impressionist picture of the stage, his favorite people ( ‘Rob, trying to scare me’ and ‘Colly in her green dress’ were my favourites), and the dancing. It was lovely. I sent it to the theatre with HRH to put up on the wall; I hope people were amused by it.

More recent news: Erm, we unintentionally acquired a Wii over the weekend. No, seriously, it was an accident. A few weeks ago Ron asked one of his students who works at Best Buy what the deal was with never having any in stock, and the kid said that it was because when the delivery trucks arrived the staff grabbed them all, put them aside, and called the people they knew were looking for them. (HRH had inquired because we were going to co-buy one for ourselves for Valentine’s Day, you see, and there were none to be found anywhere. The student thought it was very sweet of us to come up with the idea, and was flat-out stunned that I’d bought him an Xbox as an anniversary gift lo these many years ago… and nearly lost it when Ron told him I had a DS and had passed my old one on to him. I can’t remember if HRH told him I’d worked on two games. Kids. They’re so cute.) Anyway, last Friday the student called him from work to say, “Dude, the truck just arrived, and I’ve got one aside for you! You can pay me back Monday.” It was so very not in the budget, since HRH had no idea the kid was going to take it upon himself to do this, but we did it. We set it up Monday night and tried out the sports games that came with it. They’re surprisingly good for a workout.

All right. Now that I’ve handled all the other stuff, I can get an hour of some kind of work in before I have to leave to get the boy.

Today’s Riveting News

Last week I made an appointment with the optometrist, thinking that it had been a couple of years since I’d seen him. I thought that the last time I’d had my eyes checked was in 2005. Because I am boring I talk about things like that in this journal, so I searched for “glasses” and found that the last time I’d had them checked was actually in 2004. Except the entry noted that it was a quick re-check to make sure the prescription hadn’t changed before I invested in new lenses for an old pair of frames so that I’d always have a pair with me, at home or away. So I kept searching… and discovered that the last new pair had been in 2002, when my prescription changed.

Evidently, I was overdue for the appointment. Ahem.

Today’s appointment (because I am boring and journal about these things, for posterity and the search I will no doubt make in another three or six years) revealed that I am only “one click worse” in one eye than my current prescription. (The quotes are there to set apart my optometrist’s use of this oh-so-technical term.) He said that according to his notes, my eyes had originally registered as false nearsighted (oh, you lying orbs, you), and over the past three visits had slowly revealed that they were, in fact, marginally farsighted. He said to come back in two years for a general check-up unless something required addressing, that my reading material would slowly move further away from my eyes in order to be read comfortably, and that around forty I’d see a problem that would require a definite change in prescription. (“I just thought I’d tell you so that it didn’t come as a shock,” he said cheerfully. I don’t think he realised how close forty is.)

So hurrah, I don’t need to buy new glasses, but also sigh, because after eight years with one set of frames and four years with the other, I was somewhat open to the idea of a new pair.

And sure enough, just as I expected, because my productive work time is from two-thirty to five, I left at twelve-forty-five and got home at three-thirty, and have gotten nothing done because I haven’t had the time to get into the right headspace. And I have to leave to get the boy in twenty minutes. Argh. Although I did get some research done this morning, as per usual, so I am trying to convince myself that the day wasn’t a complete write-off.

Weekend Roundup: HRH’s Birthday Edition, In Which She Mainly Talks About The Jorane Concert

The big event this weekend was HRH’s birthday on Saturday, which unfortunately started out rather roughly with all three of us prickly and getting on one another’s nerves. Things were better by mid-afternoon, though. I made a double chocolate cake while the boy had his nap, and was making the frosting for it when he woke up. Much was the excitement and many were the offers to help, and requests to eat it, but we told him the cake had to wait until his grandparents showed up for the brief birthday party-in-passing that was to happen. So when they pulled up just before five, the boy ran to the front door yelling, “Grandma, Papa! We have cake!”

To save him from bursting with the anticipation we put the candles on the cake, lit them, and sang to HRH as soon as everyone had divested themselves of coats and bags. Liam helped him blow out the candles, of course. The boy was the only one who ate a sliver of cake, as the rest of us knew we were too close to dinner. Then HRH opened his gift, the twenty-inch flat screen computer monitor that his parents, my parents, and I had conspired to buy him. He was absolutely floored and thrilled to bits when he opened it. We win!

Then we left the boy in the hands of his grandparents and went out. I treated HRH to a lovely dinner at Le Biftheque (prime rib all round, preceded by Canadian smoked salmon, mmm), and then to the Jorane concert in our borough. I felt mildly odd about taking HRH to a concert given by a musician of whom I’m the primary fan, but he insisted that it was fine.

Jorane is a Quebecoise singer and cellist. I’ve been trying to see her live since I discovered her in mid-2004. With the launch of her latest album in the fall of 2007 she’s been doing a series of small concerts in and around Montreal, and I was determined to get to one of them. I was concerned that this show might be cancelled because when I bought tickets three days before the date, less than half the house had been sold. It wasn’t, of course, and I think the small audience was one of the keys to the success of the show, which managed to be intimate without being diminished in any way. And it makes sense that she’d expect small audiences; she’s in essence dividing her own audience base by offering so many shows in the same area over a period of three months.

Allow me to say here and now that I finally get it; I completely get the attraction of watching a female cellist playing non-traditional music on stage. My apologies to anyone to whom I ever gave an odd look when they said anything about seeing me on stage.

One cello, two double basses, two sets of percussion… and four people. One of the bassists also played electric guitar, acoustic guitar, keyboards, and the xylophone. And just those four people on stage created a vibrant, dynamic form of music that rolled over and through the audience. Their presence and awareness and connection to one another was phenomenal. Interestingly enough, what I felt were the most powerful and rocking songs were done by just the three string instruments, tossing lead pizzicato and bowing back and forth. Incredible. And the opening piece was done entirely with foot stomps and hand claps; it may have been based on “Elmita”, or maybe it just had a similar beat and rhythm.

They didn’t play anything the way she’d recorded it, which really impressed me. Every single song was stretched, folded, reinterpreted to such an extent that sometimes it took me a few bars or longer before I recognized it. As is often the case in live shows, they were mostly sharper, rougher, and more… well… alive than the recorded versions. The back of my mind was making periodic technical notes, too, about how the music was put together. One of the “aha” moments I had was realizing that almost all the time, the cello work was doubled by a double bass, which gives the line an added richness that you can’t get on the cello alone. This explains why I get frustrated when listening to my cello work in an ensemble, and think it sounds thin. Other observations included gawking at her lighting-fast triple-stops flying all over the fingerboard, trying to figure out her strumming method, and trying to identify the percussive stick with which one of the double bassists was playing his upright bass (metal? just a regular tipper?). At one point HRH asked me if I could play my cello standing up like Jorane does, and I found myself discussing the shifted centre of gravity when the end pin is extended that far, the tendency of the instrument to spin when you put pressure on it by bowing or fingering if you’re not bracing it with the legs (which of course she does, in a way, by bending a knee somewhat), and the bad stress on the bottom of the instrument when you do any of the above. I suspect the area around her end pin must be reinforced. I also seem to remember reading somewhere that she uses a particular model of cello that can be replaced, which makes a lot of sense; you’re not going to gig something priceless in that way.

I can’t remember the entire set list, but they played “Ineffable”, “Comme avant”, “Stay”, “The Cave”, and “Pour ton sourire”. The only disappointment (and it’s such a minor one in light of how intensely awesome the night was) was that she didn’t play “Dit-elle”, which is my favourite piece of hers; but of my other favourites they did play “Film III”, “Pour Gabrielle”, and “Battayum”. Naturally a lot of the show was given over to most of the latest album Vers a soi. It’s taken me a while to warm up to this album because it really has a different feel from her earlier work, but hearing it live has helped a lot. Her encore was a song I didn’t recognize (I believe it was a cover), played on acoustic guitar, followed by a fully acoustic version of another song I wasn’t familiar with (possibly from her first album, the only one I don’t own) — and when I say fully acoustic, I mean she and the double bassist took off their pick-ups, pushed away the microphones, and played, which was a daring and confident way to end the show. (And that’s where I heard the familiar thin sound of the cello line… which means the amplification was also altering the sound — in a good way for the music, of course).

It wasn’t just the music that made the night a success. Her presence was riveting. The way she communicated with the audience was terrific, too. She took the time to ground between songs, but never lost her connection to those listening, and never lost the thread of the show as a whole. Her patter was calm and well-delivered, introspective and thought-provoking. It felt like she was taking the time to communicate what moved her about life, what prompted her to write the songs, what made her sing them. Motivation, almost. (If you’re familiar with her live album, all of her spoken communication was very much like the beginning of “Intro”.)

And an aside: I nearly gave HRH a heart attack during the second song of the night by gripping his arm upon seeing a tech run out from stage right to fix a boom mic that was slipping in front of the second bassist, and hissing “That’s Perry!” — Perry being the Sound Guy of Awesome Excellence with whom we worked last May at Clyde’s.

I have forgotten how much I absolutely love live music, especially live music that somehow incorporates my instrument. Two minutes into the show I was wishing that band was actually feasible, because feeling how great everything can be when it works was inspiring.

HRH and I had a wonderful evening together. I have to honestly say that we haven’t been that relaxed together and enjoyed ourselves to that extent in a very, very long time. We spent Valentine’s Day night at home together eating fabulous sushi and watching Stardust, which was a really fantastic evening the likes of which we hadn’t enjoyed in a while too, but it was good to get out together.

ETA: Gah, I see that I didn’t babble on about her use of pedals, or her Zoe Keating-like real-time self-recording of cello lines and layering and looping them via footpedals, too. At one point she had recorded and looped six lines and was soloing over them, along with the two bassists (or one bassist and the other at keyboards? I forget) and the percussionist. Incredible. There was a moment when I wished I wasn’t as principled as I am, so that I could have thought of bringing my MiniDisc recorder and made a bootleg for my own reference.

Sigh

Win some, lose some.

I had a lovely lunch out with Marc. Then I got home and discovered that I’d been shipped the wrong replacement battery for my cell phone, and the company’s return policy is only valid within fourteen days from the ship date… which was fifteen days ago. I’ve sent them an e-mail; we’ll see what they come up with.

Now I have to try to do something about this book.

Today I Have…

– done a load of laundry

– practised the cello (that second movement of the Gounod symphony, and my fifteen minutes stretched to twenty before I deliberately stopped because I could have gone on but I really don’t want to push things and ruin it for myself, and why is it always that I can play things perfectly well at home?)

– handled the day’s news and correspondence

– actually put make-up on for the first time in ages, because Sandman7 will be here in a few minutes to pick me up for our lunch date. Yes! I am leaving the house! It is so exciting!

– made an optometrist appointment

– tried to make an appointment for a haircut, but was foiled

– opened the hearthcraft file and messed about, but no new words of reportable consequence yet, only resequenced ones

Not bad at all. I’m trying to feel better about all the other things that have been accomplished instead of fixating on the no-new-words part.

The Unexpected

Out of the blue, I have received not one but two floral tributes today from friends. One was hand-delivered; the other I found waiting for me (ingeniously tucked into our door knocker) when I went to deliver a card. They’re currently on my desk, looking cheerful. Thank you!

I wish Liam had finished his Valentines earlier so that those who will receive them by mail could have opened them today. There’s only so fast you can make a two and a half year old work. (He also insisted on making one “for us, Mama!”, which is currently displayed on a bookshelf.)

Back to work.

ETA: If you want to give flowers, robbing a florist the night before Valentine’s Day is not the way to acquire said flowers.