Too Easy

I sat down between kitten-nursing yesterday and whipped off three pages of the Great Canadian Novel.

The ease with which I do this is beginning to worry me. (I know, I know – remove major sources of stress and I’ll instinctively create something new to obsess me.) How can I be writing something meaningful if I’m not trying?

Oh, wait – this is connected to the work-ethic thing that says, “If it doesn’t hurt, you’re not growing”, isn’t it? Always reminds me of that wonderful Calvin & Hobbes strip where Calvin’s pretending to be his dad and says, “Go to your room! Being miserable builds character!”

I do honestly worry sometimes, though, that because I don’t seem to be putting a lot of work into my writing, it’s useless. And yet, I’ll take this ease over the seven or so years of writer’s block I had, thanks very much. I’m not complaining that things are flowing, I’m just… concerned. Okay, yes, it’s a first draft (“This is your first draft?” Ceri says, looking up from my weekly sheets with big round eyes), and I can always “work” on it later, where I will no doubt cry and moan and tear my hair. (Y’know, just as an irritating aside, I used to get A minuses on the papers I used to write and hand in without rewriting. When I finally caught on to the idea of rewriting and improving a first draft, I still got A minuses.)