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In Which She Rocks, With Awesomesauce

As everyone who was not me predicted, the workshop was a success.

Avalon Naturel, the meeting space in which I gave the workshop, has a wonderfully welcoming and comforting energy. I learned that the Avalon regulars are as equally comforting and welcoming. There were, to my astonishment (and, yes, initial panic) over twenty people crowded into the single room, some in chairs around the edges, some on mats on the floor. And they talked, bless them; they responded when I tossed questions and discussion topics out, for which I was heartily thankful, because nothing kills a workshop quicker than attendees who don’t respond. Respond these excellent people did; I had people talking to me throughout the break and afterwards, telling me how much they’d learned, both beginners and experienced people assuring me that I was making sense to them, giving them new ways to think about things or the opportunity to share their own techniques and ideas. I loved it.

It went so well, as a matter of fact, that less than halfway through it I was already thinking about what I could give from my existing slate of workshops for them. I’d been tentatively sketching a pregnancy workshop, but one of the co-directors told me that the Avalonians tend to be of below or beyond childbearing age/mindset so there probably wouldn’t be much response. But the other co-director in attendance caught me after most people had left and proposed co-leading a workshop around Harvest, which got us both very excited as it expanded and evolved into two different things.

So yes: A success, and the Avalonians are going to have a hard time getting rid of me. We have an informal agreement for me to show up one evening next month for a kaffeeklatsch type of thing once the hearthcraft book is out, so people can buy the book and I can sign them and we can all talk about lots of stuff instead of just what we can cover on one subject in three hours. (I sold every one of my previous books I’d brought except one, and signed dozens more people owned and brought along with them. Good grief.)

I know I always feel better after I’ve given a workshop or class, which is part of what gets me through the prep and anxiety leading up to the event. Part of that post-workshop feeling is relief, part of it is the sense that I’ve accomplished something, and part of that is coming away with what the attendees have given to me in the form of energy and interaction and appreciation. I came away from this one feeling so much better than I’d expected to feel that I amused myself. And frankly, I just sat back and let myself enjoy it for the rest of the weekend.

Yesterday afternoon was my monthly group cello lesson, which was so much fun. I love the group lessons as a rule, but this one was particularly enjoyable. Only four out of seven students were there, and we played some really fun stuff which I essentially sight-read because I hadn’t had time to play it through after my teacher gave it to me last Tuesday (last week = work + workshop insanity + brain burnout). I and my stand partner spent a lot of time laughing, which felt moderately wicked. I pulled some very nice stuff off when the less-confident people dropped out along the way, and tripped myself in a couple of particular places every single time because I hadn’t prepared the shifts. Last night after the boy got ready for bed I set up my cello and told him a little story about a moonlit barnyard at midnight, when the barn door creaks open and two eyes peek out, and then a little chicken steps into the barnyard to move one foot, then another, and then… dances! At this point I played the Chicken Reel for him, and he kept telling the story on his own. It was fun. When he was in bed I kept working on some of those nasty shifts and working out fingerings for various group pieces, and he sang along in the dark. This morning he woke up singing again, and when I went in to cuddle him he threw his arms around me and asked if I’d had fun at my cello practise. I told him I had, and asked if he liked hearing it while he was in bed. He said he did quite enthusiastically and asked what songs they had been (which resulted in a discussion about Dona Nobis Pacem and Ave Verum Corpus at much-too-early-o’clock), so maybe I’ll do it more often. Being comfortable enough to play with everyone at home here and upstairs was a definite indicator of how good a mood I was in. I actually liked the sound I was producing, too. Wonders will never cease.

The weather this weekend certainly contributed to my excellent mood. It was so mild, and even sunny! When we went out on Sunday morning to do groceries and errands we all wore spring coats with shoes or rainboots. Lovely! So easy to move around; no huge parkas to fight with getting in and out of the car, no mitts to keep track of! We even cracked the sunroof open on the way home from lunch yesterday. And while logically I know that we all woke up on Sunday at the same time we always do, to roll over and look at the clock and see the numbers 7:24 there when one’s son trots in and climbs into bed to cuddle is psychologically very uplifting. (This morning was a bit harder, of course, as we were waking up what felt like an hour earlier, but meh, it’s an acceptable trade-off.) I spent most of the weekend going about with a somewhat silly grin on my face. It really highlighted how hard things have been these past few months for me due to a variety of reasons, some health-related, some psychological, some SAD, and other stuff going on. Doing a really big grocery order and taking the boys out to lunch thanks to the workshop renumeration helped the mood, too. So did paying off some of my Visa bill.

I had such a fabulous weekend that this morning has hit a little hard (beyond the waking-up-an-hour-earlier thing). I slept awfully last night, basically passing the entire night in a twilight half-awake state, and I’m having a very physically achy and stiff day. The ibuprofen hasn’t kicked in after an hour, so I suspect I shall have to take another. It’s one of the fibro-related repercussions of having a terrific weekend. It’s moderately unjust that I have to suffer for having a good weekend the same way I suffer after a bad one, but at least I have the momentum of the good mood to carry me.

Today: Anthology, anthology, anthology! The rest of the submissions from the first round of invitees came in this weekend plus some early ones of the second round, so I have a week of solid work ahead.

In Which She Waves Farewell To Focus

We are at seventeen pages of workshop and we are stopping for the day, because hello, brain, where have you gone?

    BRAIN: La la la, I can’t hear you. Besides, I’m zonked. I gave you nine pages of workshop. Nine. That’s above and beyond. Also, I reorganised it all for you. I deserve a break.

    ME: But but but — I thought we had a thing. We were in synch! We were flying!

    BRAIN: Yeah, well, that was then. This is now. And my now consists of a demand for a piece of cake and some Eternal Sonata on the Xbox, kid.

    ME: We only have one more work day after today!

    BRAIN: Your point?

    ME: What if something goes wrong tomorrow?

    BRAIN: Kid, you have enough material to carry you for two hours. Factor in a break and some discussion, and you’re fine. Besides, I’m working on a meditation, but it’s still brewing. Two of ’em, actually, one for the symbol of the flame, and one for the cauldron.

    ME: Really?

    BRAIN: Yep.

    ME: That’s so sweet of you.

    BRAIN: I know. But it’s only gonna happen if you give me cake and Eternal Sonata.

    ME: I don’t know…

    BRAIN: Look. It’s feed me sugar and a really pretty video game, or wring the last drops of use out of me today and have me be nothing but a brick tomorrow. Fat lot of good that would do you.

    ME: Do you really think so?

    BRAIN: I know so.

    ME: Could we do something else? Something that feels less like skiving? Like, oh, practise the cello?

    BRAIN: Again? We did that twice yesterday, plus had a lesson. We’ve practised once already today. No, no cello for you.

    ME: Sorting through tax stuff, maybe?

    BRAIN: No, we did that on Monday. Not a lot of it, true, but even a bit is more than enough for a week like this.

    ME: You won’t be moved?

    BRAIN: Nope.

    ME: Fine. Have it your way. I give up. HRH is bringing beer home tonight because we’re both home to watch Bones, so maybe we’ll have that last glass of red wine I’ve been saving while we play.

    BRAIN: Wiktory!

So Far…

– Loaf of bread: check

– Batch of most excellent six-grain sweet rolls wrapped around dark organic chocolate, which has melted and gone all smooshy and delicious inside: check

– Successful cast-on of the beginning of those wrist warmers: FINALLY (with a bonus 1/3 first row of ribbing)

– Tomato-bean-beef stew in the slow cooker: check

I’m being so efficient that I’m kind of annoying myself.

Accomplished

So far today I have handled a lot of correspondence, confirmed the final contributor to the anthology (all slots are officially filled, hurrah!), made a batch of bread dough, made a batch of sweet roll dough, practised the cello, and various and sundry little stuff. Yesterday afternoon I did eight pages of this weekend’s workshop, which was very encouraging indeed, and began hatching ideas for more. I think I’m going to add modules on some of the basic things like mindfulness that I talk about in the book, as well as some practical stuff on cleansing and purification and balancing the energy of a space. This will work. I will fill up three hours. I’ve got a stack of books to bring with me, too, that talk about different aspects of the subjects I’m going to touch on for people to look at over the break or at the end of the day.

(Pardon me while I quietly freak out for a moment again: Seventeen. People.)

And it’s only eleven o’clock! A good day so far indeed.

In Which She Attempts To Discipline Her Brain Cells

Dear brain:

I appreciate that you’re proud of finished the novel. Really, I am. However, the point in finishing this first draft of novel before the beginning of March was so that it wouldn’t eat up valuable energy that needed to be directed into the anthology and other things. For example, there is a three-hour hearthcraft workshop that you will be delivering to (at last count) SEVENTEEN PEOPLE this Saturday. (I pause here in order to give you the appropriate time in which to freak out, o brain.) The hour-long brief lecture you did at the Hamilton Pagan Pride day isn’t going to work for this. You need to really, really plan out a better-organised and more detailed outline. A craft, maybe? Guided meditations? Break into small discussion groups? Something. Because, really, brain: Three hours. Think of something good.

Also, I am very proud of you for doing as much work as you’ve done today on the anthology. You’re completely up to date. All info you’ve received so far has been slotted into the correct fields in the correct files, submissions have been reviewed, and everyone who has handed in their story has had a contract sent to them. You’ve done everything you can do so far. That’s great. But that doesn’t mean you get the rest of the day off. It’s been a good morning of work, but a good morning and being totally on top of things in one project doesn’t entitle you to an afternoon off the other pending things. (See above re. workshop.)

You can edit the novel when the anthology has been handed at the end of the month. Four weeks. You have to ignore it for one month. Make longhand notes if you can’t wait. But no opening the file.

You may try to cast on that damed fingering weight yarn for the wrist warmers yet again if you need a break. (Yes, I thought that would send you skittering for the workshop files in tears.)

In Which She Makes An Announcement

I officially hate fingering weight yarn and tiny DPNs.

I have frogged the cast-on and/or first row five times already. I despise this project, and I’m only a day into it. I suspect I have bitten off more than I can chew, despite telling myself that the only way to learn is to try new stuff. My beautiful yarn is splitty and loosely spun, my DPNs are too blunt, and I want to be using two circulars instead of four DPNs. I want to run madly back to my Aran-weight yarns and throw myself into their arms, promising to never, ever leave them again.

That is all.

What I Read This February

Murder Most Royal Jean Plaidy
Ceremony in Death by J.D. Robb
Espresso Tales by Alexander McCall Smith
Shopaholic and Sister by Sophie Kinsella
Shopaholic and Baby by Sophie Kinsella
Old Man’s War by John Scalzi
The Ladies of Grace Adieu and Other Stories by Susannah Clarke
Magic for Beginners by Kelly Link
Victoria in the Wings by Jean Plaidy
Lady Grace: Feud by Grace Cavendish (Patricia Finney)
44 Scotland Street by Alexander McCall Smith
The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella
The Book of Air and Shadow by Michael Gruber