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And Lo, The Copy-Edits Continued…

Slog. Slog.

I appear to have an apologetic copy-editor. “I may be being nit-picky, but this seems unclear” she says of an out-and-out contradiction in a set of instructions. And she’s not doing the false modesty thing; she’s genuinely apologetic. Bless her. I told her not to apologize for finding a mistake, and thanked her.

Back to your regular browsing. Nothing to see here.

(In moments of escaping from the copy-edits, I have been pricing computers. I am surprised and pleased at how little I’m going to have to pay for something that meets my needs, i.e. what the rest of the world considers basic, especially since I have all my peripherals. And that’s including an extended service plan to cover the odd things that happen to my computers every eighteen to twenty-four months or so. Encouraging. I’ve never had a brand-new-everything-at-once system built by someone not me or a friend. This will be interesting.)

I Call A Do-Over On Today

Today the computer crashed three times in a row when I tried to boot it up. I managed to get it going in safe mode and snatched a copy of the copy-edit file so I’d have it just in case, because I’d forgotten to e-mail it to myself at the end of the work day on Monday. It’s only crashed twice since then, but it’s gotten stuck or hung up three other times. The boy was resistant about being dropped off this morning, my errands took an hour longer than I expected them to, and the rest of the day has to happen sooner rather than later because both HRH and I are booked at rehearsals tonight, so the boy has to be in bed before we leave, which is a half hour earlier than I usually leave on Wednesday nights. So I lost the entire morning, as the computer didn’t begin behaving till noon, and then I had three days of email to wade through. I may do a chapter or two of copy-edits, or I may give my crankiness and stress a break by doing some longhand hearthcraft work instead. I have three work days after today in which to finish the last half of the copy-edits (two of those are full days in which I don’t have to take the boy to whoever is caring for him that day or pick him up), and working on them today may not be the best of plans as I am very tired, achy, and headache-ridden. I don’t know if I can get into the proper headspace or if I have the reserves of energy to deal with them, or if it’s even worth the attempt. I have a very strong suspicion that it might do more harm than good. So research and notes for the hearthcraft book it is.

For those awaiting news resulting from the doctor’s appointment on Monday… there was no doctor’s appointment. I got there for three, sat there for an hour, then got up and asked the receptionist to reschedule my appointment for next week, because I had to leave to go downtown and pick the boy up from daycare. And good thing I did, because it took me an hour to get there. The receptionist was distressed because I’d gone all the way out there for nothing (sixty kilometre round trip, remember) and kept trying to find a way to slip me in between other appointments, but I wasn’t having any of that; all except two of the other people had been there longer than I had, after all. Also, I was getting claustrophobic in the miniature waiting room that had three car seats, three infants, and nine adults in it, and was growing increasingly stressed by it all. Driving all the way back out next Tuesday morning, even with the boy in tow, was infinitely preferable.

Recent news: The boy has acquired two new nicknames. We visited the LLO all-day dress rehearsal last Saturday after his nap and he had a wonderful time in the very back of the theatre with me, singing and marching and dancing ( “Come on, Mama! We have to hop!”) along with what was happening on the stage. He was remarkably well-behaved (despite my concerns that he would disturb people, and the occasional loud “Dada!” he would chirp whenever HRH would walk on stage to consult with someone about positions, which seemed to amuse people more than anything else) and we managed to stay all the way to the end of Act One, at which point we scampered home for a belated dinner, bath, and bedtime. The cast, who knows HRH by his sobriquet of Bear, began to refer to him as Little Bear. (This will, I know, amuse Bodhifox to no end, because now my son is known by not one but both the nicknames his own two children carry.) This new nickname came hard on the heels of HRH beginning to refer to the boy as HLH, or His Little Highness.

Yesterday the boy drew a very impressionist picture of the stage, his favorite people ( ‘Rob, trying to scare me’ and ‘Colly in her green dress’ were my favourites), and the dancing. It was lovely. I sent it to the theatre with HRH to put up on the wall; I hope people were amused by it.

More recent news: Erm, we unintentionally acquired a Wii over the weekend. No, seriously, it was an accident. A few weeks ago Ron asked one of his students who works at Best Buy what the deal was with never having any in stock, and the kid said that it was because when the delivery trucks arrived the staff grabbed them all, put them aside, and called the people they knew were looking for them. (HRH had inquired because we were going to co-buy one for ourselves for Valentine’s Day, you see, and there were none to be found anywhere. The student thought it was very sweet of us to come up with the idea, and was flat-out stunned that I’d bought him an Xbox as an anniversary gift lo these many years ago… and nearly lost it when Ron told him I had a DS and had passed my old one on to him. I can’t remember if HRH told him I’d worked on two games. Kids. They’re so cute.) Anyway, last Friday the student called him from work to say, “Dude, the truck just arrived, and I’ve got one aside for you! You can pay me back Monday.” It was so very not in the budget, since HRH had no idea the kid was going to take it upon himself to do this, but we did it. We set it up Monday night and tried out the sports games that came with it. They’re surprisingly good for a workout.

All right. Now that I’ve handled all the other stuff, I can get an hour of some kind of work in before I have to leave to get the boy.

So Far

I have worked through three chapters plus one intro of copy-edits, and am still alive.

I still really, really need a break. Except I’m going to lose most of the afternoon to a doctor’s appointment and then going to pick the boy up, so I’m trying to get as much done as possible before I have to stop.

ETA: Four.

ETA: Five. Over halfway done! I really should stop or I’ll run out of energy and be useless for the rest of the day. I should have lunch, distract the mind with a book for a bit, then maybe make some longhand scribbles for the hearthcraft book… and leave the rest for Wednesday.
I really, really wish I could finish this today — it would do my general work-related confidence a lot of good, as well as my anxiety about how to make the hearthcraft book settle down because I’d be able to go right back to it — but I have no idea what I may run into that may require serious rewriting. Handling rewrites and copy-edits involves constantly being on guard or on edge as you scroll to the next page and scan for the red marks, and that’s wearing in its own way. And then if you find a place that demands extensive reworking, that obviously takes a lot of energy to handle. And being newly hyper-sensitive about the amount of energy I have to spend daily, well, I’m trying to play it safe, even though it’s going against my natural inclination to keep pushing to finish it all as soon as possible. Doing that and burning myself out for the next three days does no good at all.

Hearthcraft Book Update

Total word count, hearthcraft book: 43,049
New words today: 1,361

More deity stuff. And research to get it because “so-and-so: this culture’s god of hearthfire” does not an adequate base for expansion make.

I’m seeing less and less places that need expansion, though, as I skim the document to find places to work on. This is good but also somewhat unnerving, because as I mentioned earlier, I’m dealing with the whole ‘this feels too vague’ issue. (I must explain! I must explain more! I must — no wait, the editors always gently tell me that I’ve made my point and this now qualifies as redundant, no matter how beautifully it’s written.). There are two chapters that have pretty much nothing in them, however. I think next time I sit down to this I’ll have to go through each chapter carefully to see what’s there, what’s missing, and make note of what needs work so I don’t overdose on overexplanation when I could be, you know, actually putting something in for the first time in another chapter.

Monday, however, will not be that day; the copy-edits for the pregnancy book landed in my in-box today, and are due back a week from Monday. Next week is therefore another rewrite session. The sooner I get that done, the sooner I can get back to working on the hearthcraft book. I scanned the first third of the book and didn’t find much other than standardization of certain things, although there seems to be a gratuitous change in spelling for a deity name; I’ll have to see if there’s an argument for it included somewhere. I’m crossing my fingers that the copy-edits are all that straightforward.

Hearthcraft Book Update

Total word count, hearthcraft book: 41,688
New words today: 1,491

I combined two chapters, moved a few pages around to other chapters to create better flow, talked about ethics and composting (not the ethics of composting, which is something entirely different). Is that all I did? It feels like I did nothing. I could have done so much more, but I just can’t focus or get into the damn thing or something. Gah. I should be happy I’m finding even fifteen hundred words’ worth of things to say these days.

I am currently struggling with the suspicion that this is all much too vague. It’s never as bad as I think it is, which ought to be reassuring.

I really, really wish I could somehow shift my productive time so that I’m not in the swing of things when the boy comes home.

Girning

Ah. I know this feeling. I have reached the ‘I will never get it, never, NEVER!’ portion of this book, and am figuratively bashing my forehead on the keyboard while moaning to myself about how awful it is, how it will never come together, how useless I am, how I must not care about it because I can’t rouse any passion about it these days, and why do I bother making more time to write (i.e. booking the boy in with the caregiver one more day each week) when it doesn’t happen?

(The answer: Because more time provides more opportunity for it to occur. Yes, it also creates more opportunity for self-loathing and despair, but that goes with the territory.)

Except it does happen, because although I don’t produce as much as I feel I ought to produce (curse you, unrealistic expectations of maintaining ridiculous output!), every day the book inches closer to being a full first draft. It’s just not inching along fast enough for the manager part of my brain. The rest of my mind is limping along asking piteously what the managing bit wants from it, because it’s doing all it can.

Also, I am tired of dealing with this ongoing damn pain. It can just go away. I’m almost afraid to think of how bad it would be by now without the medication.

Hearthcraft Book Update

Total word count, hearthcraft book: 40,197
New words today: 2,724

More trying to define spirituality, as well as writing about needfires and smooring. I’m not sure how I got that many words down today; it certainly didn’t feel like that many when I was digging for them. All I knew is that I really, really wanted to break 40K.

This was a bad day in terms of physical pain.

I have to fly to pick the boy up at five.