Category Archives: The Boy

Tired And Cranky

Well, the crock pot directions weren’t kidding when they say “trim the fat from the meat”. Normally when you trim fat, you trim excess fat because most meats benefit from a bit of fat marbled throughout to help keep it from drying out during the cooking process. Next time I’ll trim all the fat, because what little fat was left ended up melting over everything. Greasy carrots and potatoes are not what I had in mind when I made this pot roast. Lesson learned. Apart from that it was delicious, and I’m looking forward to experimenting with other things. And possibly the best part of dinner was that I could feed the roast and vegetables to Liam, so he ate exactly what we ate last night. And wow, did he ever eat a lot of it.

The further away the gig gets, the less happy I am with it. I’m certainly not looking forward to the recording. Most of me just wants to forget it and remember Invisible’s portion of the evening. Goodness knows my body remembers it; I haven’t danced in, well, possibly over a decade (save for the dancing to Sheena Is A Punk Rocker during Invisible’s sound check last October) and things started to be rather ow last night. And I have a bruise across the top of the palm of my bow hand, and my little finger on the same hand was swollen when I got home on Saturday night, but those are from the hand locking during the second song of the set and forcing me to switch my bow hold. It gave me a lot of trouble, which I’d expected, but I didn’t anticipate having to deal with it so early on.

I finished Bellwether the morning after I’d started to reread it. Now I’m rereading Lincoln’s Dreams, and I’m almost finished that too. I’ll have to reread Connie Willis’ short fiction next, because I recently reread Passage and Doomsday Book not long before that. I seem to have lent my copy of Remake to someone, because it’s not on the shelf.

Everyone’s tired and cranky here. Liam keeps waking up in the middle of the night, and I know it’s because of his teeth, but there’s not much more we can do than give him Tylenol and cuddle him while he screams. And once he’s up and finished his bout of hard crying, he’s really awake so he wants to eat a full meal of milk and play for a bit before going back to sleep. And then it’s only nap-length sleep, so he’s up bright and early to begin his day. Do these teeth need a formal invitation or something? They’re taking their damn time.

I’m currently fighting the need to crawl into bed with a pile of books, a cat, and a pot of tea to ignore baby and husband today. (Apart from the obvious reasons why this won’t work, ai731 is coming over today.)

Random Thoughts

I so desperately miss writing. Writing as my day job, I mean. Having a notebook next to the bed so I can jot things down as I fall asleep isn’t the same. I miss growing a story, I miss taking an idea and developing it through a chapter of NF, I miss being ambushed by a scene or story that has to be written right now, and I miss the feeling of being drained but happy with the number of words I set down during a work session. I even miss growling about how badly the writing’s going, because even then there’s some writing of substance happening. And I even miss this.

And before anyone helpfully hops in with ideas, please understand that I’m not in need of solutions to give myself writing time. My life is different right now, and I understand that; I knew what I was signing up for when I had the baby. I’m glad to have this journal in which to record thoughts and comments and the daily swing of things; that’s my writing right now. I’m just nostalgic for the huge part of my life that writing fiction and non-fic for publication used to occupy.

We had to take Liam’s mobile down yesterday because he’s perfected standing up in the crib. It’s got a funky bend in it that turns it into a base-with-light-and-music-mobile thing, though, so we’ve got it standing on his dresser now like a lamp.

It was nice to go to bed last night with part of the day and my mood salvaged. We finally got most of the coven together to make the coven incense, and it’s divine. The whole house smells fantastic. This is the project we began at Imbolc, pinpointing the three main things our coven works for (protection, healing, and spiritual growth) and then brainstorming ingredients to reflect those things. We tested them one by one to sense energy and scent, and blended three trial batches with slight variations for everyone to test at home on their own and report back. In the end we have thirteen components plus our signature ingredient (real maple syrup!), and last night they all blended beautifully. It went a long way towards soothing the badness of the day away. That’s a sign of success, in my opinion. If the energy released by burning this incense (or simply smelling the mix!) grounds while simultaneously uplifting the spirit, then it’s accomplished a lot of its goal. Now I just need to use it in ritual to get a sense of how it functions there.

Home Again

We’re back! We had a lovely weekend, but the drive is just so incredibly draining for all three of us. Liam’s not a fan of it either, particularly since he’s teething again. The poor kid has his first real teething rash on his cheeks.

When we got home the place felt so wonderful. (Thanks for taking care of it, Tal!) Liam ran around (well, his version of it) and touched everything, toys and furniture and walls; you could just see him saying, “This is mine! This is mine too! This is all my stuff!” Maggie and Nix came right up to him and rubbed against him or let him pet them oh so gently, and he was thrilled to see them, because my parents’ cats are more of the “I’ll sit over here and watch you from a safe distance” or “I’m hiding under the bed till you’re gone” types. And after a moderately belated dinner and a bath, he went right to sleep and slept through till quarter to seven this morning, thank goodness; we were worried that he’d wake up every couple of hours. But he didn’t, and he’s in a wonderful mood today.

We came home with more chocolate than I know what to do with. Well, I do know what to do with it: put it in my sweets tin in my office where it will lurk, waiting for the time when I need it. And it’s all really good chocolate too. Liam got clothes in his Easter basket, although there is one chocolate bunny I will have to eat for him that was presented to him by a fan.

I’m so impressed by how Liam ate while we were away. For dinners, he pretty much shared what we were eating. For example, that first night he had osso bucco and polenta with us, and Sunday night he shared our Easter dinner of roast beef, roasted carrots and potatoes with gravy, plus his own personal hors d’oeuvre of apples and squash sprinkled with cinnamon. He’s discovered the joys of couscous as well. (He did not, however, share the brownies, or the pie, or the chocolate macadamia nut cookies. He did share his grandparents’ Cheerios and a couple of slivers of my fresh strawberries, though.)

We have wonderful pictures of Liam at the farm, and at the warplane heritage museum too. I’ll post them at some point when I have time. This week is already two days gone, and the schedule for the next six days is already set.

Not Dead — On The Contrary

Ah, Easter weekend, where we drive through thunderstorms to eat gourmet food, enjoy wonderful company, and generally exhale in a huge tension release. Naps all round! CBC on the television! Evil delicious snacks on the counter!

(Seriously. There’s a pound of butter in the Tupperware container of brownies alone.)

Liam has enjoyed osso bucco and polenta with everyone else our first night here. He was asleep by the time we got to the spaghetti bolognese last night, though, and thank goodness for that because he was so off his schedule on Thursday that he didn’t go to bed until nine, and woke up at 1.30 to play and didn’t go back to sleep till 4.45. Argh. But he travelled in the car wonderfully, and the only real dent in the plan was that he refused to eat the beef stew I’d made him for lunch, so all he had was lots and lots of fruit for lunch and his snack, along with some water and rice rusks.

On yesterday’s walk we saw a rabbit, and Liam is fascinated by the three big Maine Coon cats here (or rather, by the two who will stay in the room if he’s there; Cordelia’s playing the prima donna and not showing her pretty little face during the day). The stairs interest him, but he hasn’t taken a shot at them yet.

Today we’re going to a local farm to look at animals! It was misty and drizzly yesterday, but today is gloriously sunny, so we’re looking forward to that.

It feels good to be here. Even though Liam’s thrown off for a whole day after travelling, it’s worth it. I hope everyone else is having as enjoyable an Easter weekend as we are.

Ten Months Old!

And just in time for a long Easter drive, it seems that Liam has a couple more teeth threatening to appear. Someone woke up at 3:15 this morning, only went back to sleep at 4:45, and woke up again at 6:30. Infant Tylenol is my friend. (Oh, and his too; right. The line between who obtains relief from Infant Tylenol becomes so blurred…)

It’s been a big month, what with crawling and words and standing and graduating to the new big-baby car seat and so forth. Now I understand why when my mother tells stories of me as a baby, they all seem to be when I was nine months old. It’s a busy time.

Liam’s pulling himself up on everything. He wants to be standing all the time. He stands to watch his Baby Einstein DVDs, he stands to play on the coffee table with a block or two, he stands to pat the cats on the chesterfield, he stands to be dressed. He pulls himself up on kitchen cabinets, chairs, pant legs, wooden chests — you name it, he’s tried it. When he woke up last night I went into his room and saw him standing in his crib, reaching his arms out to me over the top rail as he cried. The rocking chair isn’t heavy enough and so it ends up being pushed away when he tries to scale it, and it frustrates him. He’s used the bookcases a couple of times, and we’re glad we made them really steady with shims when we moved in. He hasn’t reached for the Edith Wharton or the Nietzche on the bottom shelf yet; he seems to want the Timothy Zahn Star Wars novels. Well, he’s a bit young still. Although if there’s a book on the table or a chair, he lunges for it. He adores paper of any kind.

We bought two wicker baskets to hold Liam’s toys in the living room, and he has learned how to tip them over. He doesn’t do it so that he can play with the toys; oh no. He empties them so he can flip them over and use them to stand up. Then he pushes them around, using them as support while he walks. It’s amusing, because they’re small enough to make him bend all the way over. They slide along the hardwood really well, and the carpet too. He’s also learned how to empty them then turn it over on top of a few blocks, then slide it around with the trapped blocks sliding inside on the floor. It’s fascinating watching him develop new skills, then applying those skills to new obstacles or situations. For example, in his bath he’s been watching us scoop up water in a little cup and then pour it out again. Now he does an abbreviated version of it to make a splash. (Which has now made bathtime “a ride where you will get wet,” as HRH said last night.)

Maggie’s not as impressed with Liam sharing his toys with her as we are. Apart from letting him hold blocks up in her face, she lets him pull her, kiss her, pat her, and bury his face in her. She will often come join him on the floor where he’s playing, to just sit nearby and watch. The one thing she won’t let him do is touch her feet. He tries to do that to Nixie as well, who completely freaks out and tears off. But when he plays with his feet, then looks over at Maggie’s paws and reaches for them, she just pulls them firmly out of his reach and looks at him sternly.

He loves books. Deep in my soul, I feel relief. (I did worry, and of course it was baseless, but it was one of those “What will I do if?” things.) He has four “real” words (in order of appearance: hi, cat, Mama, Dada, although we weren’t sure “Hi!” was a real word until he began to combine it with the others), and he uses them with the correct objects when he says them, which isn’t often. He still says “boh” in an almost reverent whisper when looking at my bookcases, but he hasn’t clearly applied it to a single book yet. In fact, he doesn’t use his words a lot at all; he prefers to babble in baby-language, and his inflections are a riot.

Liam eats anything and everything. Whatever he sees me eating, he wants to taste it, then eat lots of it! He’s tasted things like fresh bread dipped in olive oil and balsamic vinegar, vanilla ice cream, all manner of crackers, chocolate muffins, and toast this way. He also wants to drink whatever I’m drinking from a glass, so I share my water with him now and again. Sometimes it even stays in his mouth. We’ve added corn, potatoes, bread, rice rusks, zucchini, chickpeas, lentils, cheese, strawberries, and fish to his regular menu. He’s getting better and better with his training cup, but he prefers it when we hold it for him, the lazy little guy.

Changing his diaper is a battle more often than not these days. We folded up the changing table extension over a month ago because he was throwing himself all over the place; we just change him on the floor now, with his knitted panda bear known as Pan-Pan (sorry Mousme! The name just kind of slipped out one day, and that was that) or his little fuzzy cow toy to distract him. I’ve become adept at diapering a baby on his tummy. He still loves the baby in the mirror, and now plays peek-a-boo with him. He can open the drawers to his bureau in his room. And he’s grown out of another batch of clothes. Especially socks: how is it that his feet grow so fast?

I absolutely adore his loony giggle. I love that I can see all his teeth when he breaks into that goofy grin before he starts laughing. I love that he’s enthralled by my cello. I love that we can have a “conversation” now. I love that we can play peek-a-boo until I tire of the game, and he laughs every single time I peek at him. I love that when we’re nursing before his bedtime, he’ll sometimes stop and struggle to sit up, then bang his hand on the arm of the chair until I read Goodnight Moon to him two or three times, and only then will he settle back to finish nursing and fall asleep. I love the sleepy grin he gives me when I’ve tucked him in and kissed him, and I pause to look at him one last time before I step out the door. I love how he pulls out all the baking sheets when I’m working in the kitchen, and pushes them around the floor like he’s pushing a toy car.

This kid? He’s okay.

Newness

I have a new printer!

We loves it, we does. It’s so quiet, for one thing, and for another it’s small enough that it fits on my desk. And it’s a document printer/photo printer/scanner, the first printer we’ve had that can handle photos, so we’ll be trying that out in the next day or so. It would be nice to actually have hard copies of all or even some of the digital photos we’ve taken of Liam in the last ten months. The only ones we have are the ones we had printed for the baby shower last July, and one or two on the fridge from my inlaws.

Apart from the suspicious ease with which the new printer unpacked and loaded and connected to the computer, today was an okay day. I filed legal documents with the Palais de Justice this afternoon with no trouble –or so it seems, which also makes me suspicious — and no, nothing bad-legal, this is friends-getting-married stuff. Then we tried to go shopping for a frame for a photo we’re sending to my grandmother for her birthday, but HRH wanted to get an 8×10 frame and enlarge the photo, whereas I’d planned to do the 5×7 thing, and this got me very tense and snappy for some reason. We ended up going home, dropping HRH and baby off, and I went out alone to finish up the shopping. After a frustrating half-hour looking for a frame in a different shop and doing some other shopping I was still annoyed, until I walked past HMV and heard someone playing the GnR Greatest Hits album. I broke into a completely disproportionate grin as I passed. Go figure.

Then Liam did art again for various birthday cards, and while we’d had the foresight to take off his shirt and pants, we ended up having to dunk him in the bath to wash all the paint off his face and arms. It was amusing.

And I still can’t get over how easily that printer installed.

Fairies?

I am still mystified as to where my current writing notebook went. Normally I assume things that are missing have been taken to Kitty Wonderland, but it’s always possible that the fairies got it.

Liam’s having a spontaneous day with Grandma, so I get to practice this afternoon. I pretty much memorised one song last night, and now I want to hack away at the second, which involves memorising that dratted Instrumental Bit Formerly Known As The Cello Solo. I want to lock in a decent fingering for it too, because even though the new A string sounds better than the old one, the boom mic I’m now using to support the pickup reproduces the A’s natural brightness a bit too well. I can rework the fingering to avoid the open A string entirely in the IBFKATCS, but this is absolutely the last time I can do it, otherwise I won’t remember the patterns correctly.