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Trees, People, Cello

Or, What My Weekend Was Like, By Me.

Saturday we trekked out to the wilds of North Stormont/Maxville to help t! and Jan dig and plant their orchard. A dozen heritage apples and other fruit trees were planted, each assigned to a different pagan friend. Everyone was invited to bless the tree they planted in whatever way they felt drawn to do so. Some blessings were elaborate; some were quiet; all were blessed with sweat and laughter. Despite assurances otherwise (and here absolutely NO ONE looks at HRH, no) it, well, it poured rain. (Except when HRH planted his tree. Ahem.) I’m a fan of rain, and it wasn’t even cold, but having trekked around after a wiggly four year old for a couple of hours and trying to keep him focused during the cumulatively long first half of the orchard, eventually agreeing to hold him on my hip while he snuggled his very wet head into my neck, took its toll on me. My blessing ended up being rushed because the boy decided he needed to use the bathroom again and we got back right when it was my turn. In the end I did nothing like what I’d prepared and pretty much just shoved the tree in the ground and told those with spades to fill the hole in. I had prepared a charged pebble that I tossed into the hole, though, and I’d brought a bottle of water blended from some Chalice Well water a friend had brought back from Glastonbury for me and a small vial of water blessed and charged at the last BFC Clan Camping I’d attended in 2004, which I poured on the ground once it was planted.

The boy’s tree was next, and he tossed his pebble into the hole. We reminded him that there was something he wanted to sing, so he announced that he had a special song to sing for his tree. “It’s a song we sing at school, and it is my favourite, and it’s about something that is under the water, and yellow,” he informed those gathered. HRH and I tried hard not to laugh as people realized what he meant, and I reminded him that no, he hadn’t planned to sing ‘Yellow Submarine,’ there was another song he’d been singing at home. So we chanted “Up and down, and sky and ground” together while those with spades filled the hole and covered the roots. It was pretty special. Then he stood looking at the base of the tree for a while as everyone collected themselves to move on to the next hole. I’m not sure if he was a bit sad that he hadn’t been able to sing ‘Yellow Submarine’ to his tree, or if he was thinking about how he’d just planted a real tree. He didn’t seem upset, just thoughtful.

As Janice planted her rowan, the first in the orchard, she named the tree Rowan Tree Farm, which feels entirely appropriate.

That night, while the boy ate a late dinner of a grilled cheese sandwich, he said, “Mama, what was your favourite part of the day?” I thought about it and said, “After we had planted all the trees and went back inside, and we’d all changed into our dry clothes, and we all had drinks and pie, and looked around and enjoyed being with our dear friends after sharing something special.” He then asked his father the same question. When I asked him what his favourite part of the day was, he said thoughtfully, “I loved meeting the dog named Carter and petting him and not hurting his leg.” (Carter, the resident year-old collie/husky/shepherd mix, has had a bad run of luck with his right foreleg, and it is splinted.) Carter’s a big dog, loves people, and is currently sporting the latest in Elizabethan collars so he doesn’t gnaw at the leg, but none of this bothered Liam; he was completely in love with the dog and very careful not to knock the splint. As I was useless with the digging part of the day (thanks, fibro) I spent some time with Carter on a leash along the edge of the field so t! could get some work done, and the dog is definitely personable. I quite enjoyed his company.

Also at dinner, Liam said, “I like Amanda.” (Amanda, whom I have known since I was about eleven, had been a passenger in our car there and back.) And then, completely out of the blue, he said something I’d never heard him say before: “When I’m bigger, I’m going to marry her.” We suspect that her admiration of Blackie and her willingness to get down on the floor and play trucks with him led him to this momentous decision.

Sunday morning I was in a lot of pain, as I’d expected; one doesn’t walk around in an uneven field holding a drenched preschooler and expect to escape unscathed. By the time my in-laws arrived for the Mother’s Day brunch we hosted I was at least functional, though. Savoury quiche, waffles, sausages, piles of fruit, salad, and mimosas. Mmm. The boy began crashing just before noon, so both he and I had a lie-down. He slept for two and a half hours (not surprising given the expected lack of nap the day before) but a rude interruption by an arrogant Hydro rep at our door ruined my chance for rest. I then went off to our monthly group cello lesson after picking a dozen of the tulips from along the side of the house for my cello teacher. Great lesson prepping for the recital in two weeks, but alas, it seems as if we will be cutting my beloved “Ave Verum Corpus,” a hesitant announcement that made all three of us doing the top melody very sad. It’s being bumped to the Christmas recital, and I fully understand why; it needs more work so that all four voices move confidently at the same time, and as the lower voices don’t feel the melody the way we do they’re not as sure about where to move, or even how they’re supposed to sound like against the other parts. But I am sad indeed.

And then last night I finished reading Dan Simmons’ very excellent Drood.

That was my weekend. The end.

I Suspect That We’re… Different

What does it say about my family when my son digs through the CDs and chooses Brahms’ Fourth Symphony to listen to while he plays with his trains?

Also, I figured out a way around his stubborn insistence that I not practise when he’s at home: I played “Old Macdonald” and “Frère Jacques”, two of the exciting selections from our upcoming recital in which we accompany the two littlest girls. (After playing Jeff’s tab of Tom Waits’ “Ol’ 55”, that is. Which is what he claimed woke him up, despite me using a practise mute and playing pizzicato.)

Mid-Week

Well, the day home with the boy yesterday was mostly terrific. The morning was lovely; he watched TV while I slept, because three hours of sleep = Very Bad. The boys had a talk about how Mama needed some more sleep before she could get up and have a good day. The boy was mostly on board with this but decided to Take Care Of Me once HRH had left for work, which entailed bringing me various stuffed animals to cuddle while I slept, and informing me every time the TV show changed, which was at fifteen-minute intervals. Still, it was something. We went out to the big bookstore to noodle about and play with the trains, and wow, it’s nice and quiet on Tuesdays. We usually go once a month on a Friday, his regular at-home day, and it’s always packed. I finally picked up Dan Simmons’ Drood, which I am enjoying immensely, and the boy got a new Henry & Mudge book. He didn’t even fuss about not buying a train beyond pointing out the milk cars to me. Then I suggested wandering through the pet store, to which he readily agreed, and he didn’t kick and scream about leaving when we had to. We stopped by the Bramble House in its new location, which has more space but now feels like it carries fewer products as a result. It’s lost a bit of its charm. The boy got some Dairy Milk Buttons, and we bought a bottle of water at the corner store to share. (Very exciting if you are the boy.)

I was looking forward to his nap so I could nap too, but things went somewhat awry. He went to sleep willingly enough, but woke up after only forty-five minutes when I’d been counting on at least half an hour longer than that. Unfortunately for me, I’d only dozed for fifteen minutes myself before he pattered in, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. I told him he could either play in his room or the living room, or cuddle with me, but I wasn’t getting up till three. He chose to stay, but whispered and squirmed a lot trying to pet Gryff, so I didn’t actually get back to sleep. At least I got to lie down with my eyes closed.

We did a small grocery run, and he was pretty good there too, apart from continually stepping on my feet because he wasn’t paying attention to where his own were. If I’d had enough sleep I’d have been more patient, but the little things like this were starting to make me grit my teeth. Once back home he settled down to watch the last half of a movie and play with his cars while I practised. I explained that I needed to, and that I’d close my office door so I wouldn’t disturb him, and he was fine with that. He came to the door about ten minutes in to watch me, then grinned and dashed away. Later, while I took a brief break, he brought his box of trains into my office to play, but when I picked the cello up again he burst into tears and wailed. He didn’t want me to play with him, he just didn’t want me to practise while he was in the room. And that’s where my short-on-sleep really caught up with me; my mood flipped from relaxed to tight and annoyed. When my temper was even enough again I talked to him about it being (a) my office, in which I am allowed to do whatever I like, and (b) he’d been informed that I was practising, so he had no reason to get upset. We went over the “How do you think Mama feels when you cry and tell her she can’t play the cello?” thing, and he mumbled, “You feel sad.” I could see that he was upset because he’d upset me, but he still didn’t want me to play.

HRH eventually got home, which helped diffuse the tension, and we had dinner. The boy was chipper and cheerful and played with him, and they had an awesome time in the bath and doing story and bed while I got ready for my cello lesson. And a wonderful cello lesson it was: my duet partner and I had a shared lesson wherein we worked our duet for the upcoming recital. It’s sounding really, really good. All we’re doing at this point is tweaking little things like gentling the ends of phrases and doing more subtle shaping along the way. Of course, I blew some simple stuff in the ensemble pieces we played first to warm up. I need to work out a weekly practise schedule where I can assign specific times to work on lesson stuff, solo pieces, ensemble music, and orchestra pieces. Otherwise I just end up trying to read through everything or what I remember going wrong, and other things get lost along the way. That’s a lot of music, after all, no matter how many notes I take about changes and obstacles in lessons and at rehearsal.

I’m worried about what’s going to happen in the summer when lessons stop.

Other good things that happened yesterday: I got my new freelance assignment (naturally, while we are given a week to turn them around, it lands at such a time when I only have two work days before the due date); receiving the exquisite score to The Painted Veil by Alexandre Desplat; and hearing back from the accountant about having a nice chunk of money being returned to us by the government. Yay for tax refunds! Yay, slashing at Visa/credit line/dumping money into RRSPs! Yay, no longer stressing about not having quite enough money from the anthology delivery cheque to buy the new computer and the 7/8 cello (for which I have begun thinking about names, which means yes, it’s going to be mine pending the full physical exam I want the luthier to give it)! I am content. I may even be able to buy a new bow, as mine is on its last legs frog-wise and has a nasty hook at the tip.

So other than the mild annoyance about not being able to sleep whenever I tried to, and the kerfuffle about not being allowed to play my cello in my own office, it was a very good day indeed.

A Happy Friday

Well, I’ve done as much as I can on the ms.; I’m waiting for answers and edits back from two of the four people I queried, due back next Monday, and then it’s back to the publisher. In celebration, I poured myself one of the new Alexander Keith Premium Whites that Ceri and Scott sent home with HRH after he helped set up their new dining table and chairs, and sat down to play half an hour of Metallica. Let me tell you, the #cello 4 line of the Apocalyptica arrangement of “Nothing Else Matters” is what it’s all about. Seriously. Celebrate those ringing tones! Sure, it’s shades of “this is all I do” and the stereotypical arpeggios played by basslines… but in 3/4 time, when you know it’s what drives the song that you’re hearing in your head at the same time, and those ringing tones echoing and lingering even when you’re playing two notes later? Beautiful.

Hmm. This beer is much… milder than I expected. Very light. Possibly too light for my mood. Oh well.

The cello lesson yesterday was all right. I suspect that I jinxed things by pointing out to the online cello community that I’d had a streak of really terrific lessons and theorizing that I’d passed the plateau I’d been struggling to move beyond. My bow hand is creeping back into bad habits and my bow arm is creeping back into wrist-led territory. Well, ten years of bad habits aren’t going to vanish overnight. I think I really prefer Saturday morning lessons; I’m much more relaxed, I’m not rushed because I have to go somewhere else next, and I’m not tired from working. I take what I can get, though. Anyway, by the time I picked the boy up and got home, I had a really bad stomachache for some reason and ended up not eating dinner, which was annoying because I’d been craving spaghetti for two weeks and had finally picked up the ingredients that morning.

I remedied the no-food thing by making a poached then shredded lemon-herb chicken breast with baby lettuces and freshly-grated Parmesan in a wrap for brunch today. Dear gods, so good.

And now, I am decamping to the living room to read, and taking the vase of tulips I cut from the side garden with me. I hope everyone’s having a wonderful Beltane.

Sharing

One thing I love about the Internet (hello, Internet!) is that it’s good for sharing stuff with millions of people you’ve never met.

Allow me to share some music with you.

I discovered Philip Sheppard almost exactly two years ago. He’s a cellist and a very talented composer. I used to have his MySpace page open while I worked on other things so I could listen to his posted tracks on an endless loop. I got other people hooked, too, muah-hah-hah.

Now he’s posting more and more tracks, some free to download as mp3s, others embedded within his web site. As a start, visit this page to listen to a selection of his haunting piano pieces. A handful of free mp3s for download can be found here. There are other embedded pieces of various styles scattered throughout the site’s pages, too, as well as a free download of sheet music for his lovely Crystallized Beauty theme, arranged for two pianos.

Enjoy!

@PhilipSheppard
Radiomovies (Philip Sheppard’s official blog and web site)
Philip Sheppard’s MySpace page

Ongoing

Doing the evaluation of the final third of Orchestrated today. Why is it not finished, when I have had all week to work on it? I… keep falling asleep. No, really. Not because it’s bad or boring, just because my body has been wresting the steering wheel out of my hands and saying “NOW WE WILL NAP” around two every day, and bang, my eyes are closing and I have to put the ms. or whatever book I’m reading down and pass out for an hour or so. Then it’s cello and making dinner and the boys are home, and yeah.

What I’m discovering about the ms. is that it flows decently well. I haven’t yet found a gap or a hole that really absolutely needs to be filled; there’s nothing obvious missing. Things need to be tightened up here and there or expanded a tiny bit, but overall it’s surprisingly solid. I also have really good places that can be used as chapter break points. I may need to go back and insert one or two more clues to the eventual crisis of a main character, but that’s actually minor. I found a place where some of my intro-stuff-written-for-me-but-unnecessary-for-readers can go, and in the new place set in dialogue will actually serve the purpose of character interaction/deepening.

I read pretty much the entirety of Perri Knize’s Grand Obsession in one day. It was fabulous. I was worried at one or two points that it was going to veer a bit too far into the mystical (and coming from me that’s saying something) but it righted itself in time. After all, how do you define how music affects us? It’s a twofold story about a woman deciding to study piano in middle age and buying one, then trying to understand what the personal connection to a specific instrument is (not violin or cello or piano, but one specific example of the chosen instrument), and an exploration of how pianos are built and maintained.

We had out second rehearsal with our third guest conductor and I enjoyed it even more than the first. He’s good. There is a problem with his voice carrying to the back, but he’s terrific in his bilingualism, and his musicality and his interaction are fabulous. He knows exactly what to work to smooth out problems, and how to phrase what he’s looking for. We’ve added Grieg’s Norwegian Dances to the programme, and (hurrah!) Vaughn Williams’ English Folk Song suite. Of course, the Vaughn Williams starts in A-flat major (F minor? no, pretty sure it’s Ab) which is four flats, augh! I have enough trouble remembering to flatten my As, and he wants me to flatten my Ds as well? But it is Vaughn Williams and I am over the moon.

Also in cello news, while I was working on some ensemble stuff earlier this week and trying to isolate why my intonation was unstable, my left elbow kind of said, “Oh, I’ve got it,” and moved a millimetre or two forward on the horizontal axis, all on its own. And it solved the problem. I was amazed and very grateful to it. Perhaps the next time I have a problem of some kind I shall consult it.

My friendly neighbourhood postperson brought me my two Harmony circular needles I ordered from KnitPicks today, along with the sample skein of green Pima cotton yarn I ordered. The colour’s a bit bright for the sweater I ultimately wanted it for; it was a bit less yellow on my monitor. Not a problem; I ordered it to test it out in a washcloth kind of swatch anyhow.

Did the groceries and some birthday shopping this morning and also acquired a new blouse for myself. It never ceases to amaze me how much I hate shopping for clothes, and yet have managed to acquire two new pairs of shoes, two blouses, and three sweaters in the past month. They all kind of ambushed me, though; it’s not like I decided I needed new stuff and went looking. Well, okay, I needed new black shoes, but I found them by accident just browsing in Winners. And I went into a store because I remembered seeing a blouse and ended up not buying it but two other sweaters. Still. And while I bought the blouse today I wondered, Where do I wear all this stuff other than to orchestra and my cello lessons? I work at home. I mean, I occasionally go out, but not often. I wear jeans and t-shirts most of the time. Maybe I’ll institute a one-day-a-week workday in the library just so I can wear slightly nicer stuff. Good grief.

Right-o; back to work. Also need to collect wrapping paper and addresses for a trip to the post office later.