Oh, great. Now I’m craving toasted pumpkin seeds. What is with me today?
And on a completely different topic, my back has been crawling for about twenty-four hours now. Something’s coming.
Oh, great. Now I’m craving toasted pumpkin seeds. What is with me today?
And on a completely different topic, my back has been crawling for about twenty-four hours now. Something’s coming.
Apart from the gastro thing (which appears to be officially over, hurrah!… except now HRH is very ill indeed) Liam’s doing really well these days.
New words lately: “Tigger”, “ta-ta” (as in thank you, and used infrequently, but when it is it seems to be to ask for something; I think we need to work on the concept of cause and effect), the rats are now “tss”, please is “lss” (as is his playmate Elise), Cheerios are “ch!”, Rice Krispies are “kss”. The trains have become “choo-choo”.
Those ankle boot-shoes just rock. They are so darned cool.
He made up a new game last week. He tossed his ball over the child gate into my office where I was doing some online banking and then grinned at me, looking like a little puppy. So I tossed it over his head into the hall. He followed it, and the next thing I knew he was tossing it over the child gate again. I started tossing the ball further and further down the hall, saying “Go long, son!”. (I am a geek. He’d better get used to it.) He loves this game; he absolutely beams while he plays it. The whole ball thing kind of came out of nowhere. We’ve been trying to teach him how to play with it for months, and nothing. Then out of the blue he found it one day, stood up with it, and dropped it on the floor. He saw it bounce. And that was the end of that. The ball is now one of his favourite toys. He throws it two-handed in that adorable underhanded throw toddlers have.
I don’t want to say this too loudly in case I jinx it, but it looks like we have the one-nap-a-day thing down. He goes down after lunch for an hour and a half to two hours. And as a result, he’s sleeping a bit more at night, which means sleeping in later in the mornings. This is a Very Welcome Thing.
He pulled the Muppet Movie off our DVD shelf and asked to watch it yesterday, so we loaded it and he sat on my lap holding the case, touching the photo of Kermit with his banjo, then looking up at the screen where Kermit was singing ‘The Rainbow Connection’ and softly saying something that sounded like “kog”. Which was, in all likelihood, his version of Kermit the Frog, and charmed me utterly. I cuddled him closer very gently, despite wanting to squeeze him as tightly as I could, overwhelmed by that surge of love and joy he inspires in me.
Sometimes, even in the middle of all the stress and rushing and frustration, all I need is a moment like that to reset everything.
Being virtuous and not buying soda at the grocery store is all well and good, but infuriating when later that day one develops a whopper of a craving for it.
Damn it all.
Gah.
Current word count stands at 46,746 and page count at 206 after tightening and polishing Chapter 4, which isn’t fully polished to my satisfaction but could be handed in like this. It’s something I can go back and fiddle with if I have time after everything else is done, and if I don’t, I’ll get it in the rewrites. (I hate thinking that. I want it done right the first time.)
Also, something I wrote in Chapter 4 today inspired a ritual that got written in Chapter 6. I orignally thought this ritual had to go into Chapter 7, but I was evidently on another planet at the time. So that’s been crossed off the list of things to do for Chapter 7, even though it shouldn’t have been there in the first place.
Tomorrow: Chapters 5 and 6. And since 6 is such a little thing, maybe some of 7. (The actual stuff that needs to be done in 7, I mean. Wow, I’m tired.)
I need to go find dinner. I think there’s leftover chili.
Things are kind of tentative around here. Liam has his first gastro thing happening, and is now living on toast, a bit of juice, and Pedialyte. He’s cheerful and playful during the day, although with a low appetite and he’s operating at a less breakneck speed than usual. He’s sleeping a bit more (I could get very used to this part!), and does that throwing up thing once or twice at night, although he has no temperature. We’ve done more laundry in the past day than we’ve done in the past two weeks. He’s so good: once he’s been sick he just wants to sit in someone’s lap and lean his head against their shoulder, while the other parent changes sheets or washes his bunny or finds new pyjamas. If he’s awake enough he even wants to play a bit, or coo softly to us while he cuddles, or read a book until he drops off to sleep again.
It will be over soon. In the meantime, there’s lots of love going around.
Things are rolling along nicely. Adequately. Well, not badly.
The total word count currently stands at 44,730, and there are 201 pages. Chapters 1 through 3 are pretty much complete, with only a couple of highlighted sentences to be rephrased when I have more of a brain. Chapter 4 is seventy-five percent finished as well, although that final 25% is going to be a pain in the neck to complete because it’s lists and correspondences and will likely take most of my day tomorrow.
Then it’s Chapter 5, where I have to write a set of instructions for basic meditation, expand a ritual, clarify and expand the breathing meditation, outline a basic circle-cast, and cover basic shields (can’t I just say “read this other book I wrote”? — only I won’t do that because I hate it when someone deliberately leaves something out so that I have to go buy another book in the middle of the book I’m reading). All these things seem huge in my brain, but they’re really only a paragraph or two each. And then in chapter 6 there’s only one thing I have to fix/tweak/expand.
Which brings me to Chapter 7, the chapter of grief and sorrow and the icky things one doesn’t want to have to think about, which only needs three rituals and some polishing. If I don’t finish it on Friday, then it, Chapter 8 (which needs some moderately substantial things added to it), and Chapter 9 (two rituals need to be created in entirety) will be handled Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday will be the final finicky bits and read-throughs and checking of appendices. Oh, and I have to fit looking for visual references for the art department in there somewhere too.
‘Cos next Wednesday’s it. By five o’clock it has to be in someone else’s inbox on someone else’s desk in another country. The End.
I’m looking forward to November. Odd to say that, but I am. It will be nice to have some time to myself.
Orchestra tonight, and yet another week has gone by where I’ve been working so much during the day and being so wiped at night that I haven’t rehearsed anything. This is yet another reason to be looking forward to November: I’ll actually be able to practice.
Yes, we’ve reached the hack and slash part of the game, where I wade through the MS and am merciless with the cut-and-paste-into-a-Deleted-Materials-file sequence of mouse clicks. Get rid of those useless paragraphs and those vague thoughts! Make room for the rituals and meditations that exist only in the [insert ritual here] sense! And since I’m also at the low self-esteem I-hate-myself-my-writing-is-awful point of the process (right on schedule, I must add), cutting things out to make it as focused as possible isn’t being hindred by any sense of maudlin attachment.
This is where I stop counting words. The final count will be what it is when the dust settles mid next week.