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Twenty-Eight Months Old!

Today is a momentous day: Liam and HRH removed the front rails of the crib this morning, to make him a real bed.

He scrambled right up onto it and said, “A bed!” Then I pulled out the Nemo spread I bought him months ago in anticipation of this day, unfolded it and said, “Who’s this on your new blanket?” He leapt off the bed and stood taking it in with a slightly open mouth for a moment, then said “Nemo” in quiet, reverent tones. I put it on the bed and he threw himself back on to test it out. “Liam on a Nemo bed!” he said, and went to find his favourite toys to pile on it. Every once in a while as he played he’d say, “Oh, nice bed!” in a casual way as if he’d just noticed it. We’ll see how bedtime goes tonight. HRH was a little sad last night when we confirmed that we’d be doing this as planned today. I’m relieved, because I frequently have to lift Liam in and out of the crib many times every day because he wants to play in it. This way he can do the climbing in and out himself. I don’t anticipate any major problems in keeping him in bed at night; it’s so exciting for him that I think he’ll want to stay there on his own.

Lately when we’ve put him in his crib at night and turned out the light he would say “Too dark! Turn on light!”, which was ironic to me because he was the one insisting on sleeping in the blanket tent that HRH made for him over half the crib. If you want more light, come out of the tent, kid! There’s plenty of light being cast by the aquarium. So we’d turn the overhead light back on and turn the dimmer down almost as far as it would go, then turn it out completely once he was asleep. This will no longer be a problem, because he hasn’t requested the tent back up now that the crib is a bed.

He woke up at six the other morning, pointed outside and said, “Too dark! Turn on light!” I said, “I can turn on the light inside, but I can’t turn it on outside. The sun isn’t up yet.” He looked surprised. “Sun not up yet?” Then he pondered for a moment. “Maybe… call sun? SUUUUUUN! WHERE ARE YOU, SUN! COME OUT!” The sun isn’t the only thing he’s called. A few weeks ago HRH and Liam were on the back deck watching a storm roll in. The sky was dark and the wind was tossing trees around, and lightning was flashing with thunderous accompaniment but it wasn’t raining quite yet. I was in the kitchen and I could hear them talking. Suddenly HRH bundled Liam inside. “Raining?” I said. “No,” said HRH. “My son leaned on the railing, held his arms out to the storm and said, ‘Thunder lightning, come play with Liam!'” As some of you may know, HRH has a certain sympathy (empathy?) with weather, and having experienced first-hand what being next to a lightning strike is like, he chose to curtail the suggested playdate.

Our big TV died some time ago, and two weeks ago we re-acquired our smaller oak-cased television from the upstairs neighbours. We went out and bought a rabbit-ear antenna, and voila! Reliable DVD watching! Plus we get CBC and CTV and Global, which means the Tudors, Heroes, and House for us, and — the best of all for Liam — the Doodlebops again. But really, just having a reliable television for movie-watching is such a relief. We put movies on to relax, and having a screen that flickered and shrank unpredictably was decidedly not relaxing. His favourite film is still currently Lilo & Stitch, although he’s been asking for “Woody Buzz” again recently, and once a week he’ll ask for Peter and Benjamin or the mice (also known as the World of Beatrix Potter series. Music-wise he’s still big on the Cars soundtrack, but here again he’s been asking for “Woody Roundup”, which is what he calls the Toy Story 2 soundtrack.

Two weeks ago he came and sat on my lap to watch the third movement of Beethoven’s cello sonata in A minor with piano accompaniment (as played by Leonard Rose and Glenn Gould — YouTube is incredibly useful sometimes). He became very excited, said “Liam play piano!” and thwacked enthusiastically at the laptop keyboard, sending the semi-colon key spinning off into the air. It’s kind of hard to be mad at a child for being passionate about music. I brought out the viola for him the other day and he gasped with delight, clapped his hands, and said “Liam make music!” I love that he gets so excited about it. Eventually he’ll love it in a less physically violent fashion and I won’t have to run interference.

When Liam wants to do something he’ll suggest it, and generally, because life tends to be a series of crushing defeats for a two year old, the answer is no. So sometimes he’ll deliberately ask for a list of things he knows can’t happen, in a veiled effort to get to something reasonable that we will, he imagines, agree to with relief and enthusiasm. “Go outside?” he’ll say. “It’s too wet, Liam.” “Watch… Woody Buzz?” “It’s too early to watch movies, Liam.” “Go see Nana Grandad?” “It’s too far, Liam.” “Go bookstore?” “The bookstore isn’t open.” “Go see… lobsters?” And he has a look on his face that says, ‘You see, I am not dim, I have cleverly herded you into my crafty trap, you cannot POSSIBLY say no to driving to the grocery store because we ALWAYS need something from the grocery store and while we’re there we can stop by the fish counter for, oh, half an hour so I can watch the live lobsters.’ The first time he said it I nearly choked because I laughed so hard at the unexpected appearance of crustaceans on his list.

He loves to play tea-time with his tea set, and now we frequently have a pretend tea session after his pyjamas are on and before we curl up to read stories at bedtime. “Oh, tea!” he exclaims and scrambles to get the tea tray, pouring pretend tea in an enthusiastic (if not tidy) way into the little red teacup, tossing it back before saying “Mama tea! and pouring me a cup. Once we’ve sipped, he says “Oh sugar!“, and we go through the spooning of pretend sugar into our cups. Then I inevitably have to look under the dresser for the little cream pitcher, and we do it again, and then HRH gets his cup too. His pretending is becoming more complex by the day. Liam picked up a block last week and waved it around in the air making whooshing noises. “Rocket!” he said to me and ran around the room with it, still making the happy whooshing noise. Then yesterday he picked up a helicopter toy and waved it around. “Harold flying with Buzz!” he said. This interested me because Harold is a helicopter character from the Thomas the Tank Engine world, while Buzz Lightyear is a character from a Pixar film, and he was imagining Buzz was there. When he takes a bath he plays with two plastic turtles and a Little People treasure chest, and the turtles pretend to eat what’s in the chest. “Turtles eating… oatmeal,” he’ll say. “Nom nom nom!” The turtles eat for a while, and then he says, “Turtles eating… sausage!” (That’s one magic chest: not only does it serve up any kind of food the turtles wish to eat, it appears to be a never-ending supply as well. Disguised as gold coins and various other piratey treasure too, I might add.)

He reads voraciously, on his own as well as with us. Mortimer, Murmel Murmel Murmel, and The Incredible Book-Eating Boy are all still frequent bedtime requests. He’s added The Cat In The Hat Comes Back to his Seuss favourites, too. He points at words while we’re out and about sometimes and says, “Letters!”, although he doesn’t voluntarily identify them very often. He frequently counts to ten, and sometimes goes beyond, but after ten there’s no guarantee they’ll come in correct order. He likes to touch the magnetic letters on the fridge, then knock them all down, saying “Chicka chicka boom boom!“.

He grows every single day. People notice a difference when they haven’t seen him in a week. His head now comes up to my hip! We’ve given up on size 2T pants; size 3T is where we need to be now, because his legs are so long. Tops absolutely need to be 3T or larger because his 2T shirts show a little too much tummy! Shoes are between size 7 and 8, and he’s wearing at least 3X coats. He can climb just about any staircase, and walk down them too if he’s holding someone’s hand. Afternoon naps range between an hour and a half to two and a half hours long, and night sleeps are about eleven and a half hours long. Every day is an adventure; every day is fun. Even when I get frustrated, there’s something to appreciate or marvel at about him.

Suspense!

HRH has just driven off to his interview at Champlain College this afternoon for the position of visual arts technician. Thank you all for your well-wishes; I know they’re helping him. I haven’t seen him this nervous/excited in years! Keep thinking good thoughts till about three this afternoon. We’ll let you know what happens as soon as we have news. (Seeing as the position begins Monday, I’m thinking we’ll know sooner rather than later.)

Pressing the Restart Button

Gentle readers, I know it’s the eleventh of the month and therefore the boy is twenty-eight months old, but I am very ill thanks to something I ate last night and it’s not going to happen today. I’m going to go back to bed, read research books, and draw arcane editing symbols all over a printout of my current book proposal with suggested rewrites in the margins. Watch for his monthly newsletter tomorrow instead.

Vivaldi Update

Today I wrote what is essentially the climax and resolution of the first draft of this young adult novel.

Total word count, Il Maestro e le Figlie di Coro: 53,903
New words today: 3,643

There is a full chapter of wrap-up to go, but the hard part is over. Then comes the rewriting of the uneven first draft and expanding of the basic story. I still have two pages of scenes outlined in note form to expand and insert somewhere in the first half of the book, and I know the timeline is a bit wonky season-wise and needs to be fixed. When it’s over it will be the right length. I have to keep reminding myself I cut five thousand words not long ago, too.

I had momentum on my side today, once I actually got this part going. I kept thinking ‘I should stop and work on that book proposal’ but another part of me would point out that if I stopped I’d just have to work up the momentum again another day. So here we are, and I’ve written what the entire book has been leading up to. It needs more emotional depth, perhaps more detail (although I risk going into territory too technical that may lose the reader if I do), but the basic structure is there, eleven months after I began it.

Mousme came over to write with me today again. I like it when she’s here; I actually sit down and write instead of messing about doing other things. She requested Haydn quartets as writing music and I remembered why I own so many CDs of them: I love the things. And when she left I took a bit of a break, then went back to writing (see above re: momentum).

Now I have to really change gears and get into the headspace for orchestra tonight. And I’ve just realised that because I was gone for four days over the holiday I haven’t practised at all, and there will only be three of us in the section tonight, which means I have to be extra on. Oops. I should put the CDs I have of the pieces we’re doing in the CD tray and listen to them.

Fall and the Still Point

I’ve been kind of introspective lately, and it’s not the kind of introspection that lends itself to journaling. You may have noticed that a lot of my record-keeping lately has been of the ‘we did this today’ genre, and that’s okay by me. I use my online journal as a way to check back and see what we were doing when a lot. But I haven’t felt moved to write down what I’m feeling. Maybe it has to do with that fact that I can’t quite define how I’m feeling – it’s not bad, it’s not wonderful, it’s just me. These days I’m better at releasing or rejecting unnecessary stress, which is miraculous. I don’t feel like I’m trying to keep up with anything or cram everything into my life for once. I’ve been spending a lot of time just being. I’m not trying to fill my days (although it happens more often than not). I’m trying not to overdose on internet-related things, and I find that there’s more to my day as a result of the less-cluttered headspace.

It’s fall, and I love fall. And as usual, thoughts begin to turn inwards during this season. Samhain is only three weeks away. This year I’ve realized it early: it’s coming, I’m slowing down, I’m looking inward, and I’m not having periodic fits wondering what’s going wrong with me. It’s dark when we wake up, which is depressing; what’s more depressing is that it’s still dark by seven AM. Right now it’s sunny outside, which is a blessed break as it’s supposed to be drizzly all week. I love sunny fall days; they make me feel wonderful no matter what. It can be three degrees outside and sunny, I don’t care. Things feel somewhat as if they’re reaching a still point for me. (Of course, this means part of me is looking around for the piano about to fall.)

We visited my parents over Thanksgiving weekend and had a good time mingling with family. It poured with cloudy intervals, and was alarmingly hot for the time of year. Liam is now capable of racing up and down their stairs on his own, which is both a relief and a worry as he chases the cats who really need some time and space to themselves when he’s there. My cousin and his wife came over for Thanksgiving dinner with their little daughter who is about nine months younger than Liam, and it was priceless to see the two of them careening around together, actually having little toddler conversations between all the giggling and crowing. My mother brought some lovely things back from Greece and I got her old olive green pashmina wrap to add to my collection of wraps that I don’t wear anywhere near often enough. I really should just get rid of everything normal in my clothing collection and embrace eccentricity. The good thing is I’ve worn it several times in the past five days, so maybe I’m getting somewhere. There’s a lovely stacked-heel strapped moss green suede shoe coming out in the Hush Puppies November collection that would fit right into the eccentric category too. Sometimes I wonder why I ever buy suede shoes, because I rarely wear them for fear of ruining the suede in the Montreal rain that falls with no warning and no regard for forecast. (Why do I buy shoes at all? I never wear them out. I have a pair of black shoes I’ve worn for the past nineteen years. I hate going shoe shopping, but over the past four years I’ve randomly spied one pair a year that I love. My Buster Brown owly clogs were one such purchase. I’ll look at these Hush Puppies when they come out, but I’ll probably end up nixing them for the height of the heel.)

I got my anniversary gift from HRH over the weekend as well. I ended up buying HRH a DeWalt rotary saw, with which he was thrilled. In turn, he gave me a choice between a pair of Doc Marten boots I’d seen online and loved, and a crimson DS Lite. As Docs are traditionally way, way too wide for my feet and I don’t have enough reason to wear the boots I already own, and the chances of finding the style I wanted still available was next to nil, we went with the DS. (Which in turn means he inherited my original large DS. There is method to our madness.) So I am now the owner of a lovely crimson DS Lite with a snazzy little snap-close case. It’s shiny, and weighs so much less; my wrists don’t hurt from holding it up after I’ve played.

I should be getting rewrites and copy-edits on the pregnancy book around the end of the month. The revised projected release date is August 2008.

See? Here we are, back to a ‘this is what we did’ post. Not a bad thing.

Home!

Hello world, we are home once again after a Thanksgiving weekend away with family. I won’t be able to get to my e-mail until tomorrow afternoon, so if you have something waiting in the queue and you’re wondering why I haven’t replied, now you know. Of course, if you don’t read my journal, then you still don’t know, do you, and this becomes a surreal rhetorical exercise.

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The alien child masquerading as Liam was replaced by the original model in the late afternoon yesterday, and all is all manner of well again. Thank you all for your sympathy. It was more bewildering than anything else: if the Terrible Twos fairy had visited, one would think sie would have bestowed a single fairy-gift rather than dumped the whole bag on top of the poor kid. All those actions are things he never does, so for him to do it all in the space of a few hours… wow. It was a rough day for him for some unfathomable reason. He woke from a nightmare around ten-thirty in tears, sobbing something about “Mama gone no say bye-bye”, so I cuddled him and told him I wasn’t leaving, we read a book together quietly, and he slipped back into bed cuddling his huge Thomas pillow as a treat. At least it wasn’t the “car coming, no stop, Dada gone” nightmare he had a couple of weeks ago while HRH was out gaming.

In other news, there is a crumb of cold comfort for those who are horrified by the massacred The Dark Is Rising film:

First it was The Dark Is Rising. Then The Seeker: The Dark Is Rising. Now it’s simply The Seeker.

Good thing, too. Maybe now people unfamiliar with the book won’t get the wrong idea altogether, or associate the film with the novel at all. We can hope.

Today I go back to researching and drafting that new proposal based on the original one from 2006. The book has changed so much in my brain that the original proposal seems almost cartoonish. Then this afternoon I’ll be doing a ruthless editing pass on one of my early YA books, because why on earth am I letting it sit on my hard drive when it’s finished and has gone through one serious edit already? I’ve got agents bookmarked to query, and I wanted it out making the rounds by the end of last year (of course, this was before I was contracted to write the pregnancy book, but still). This way, the Vivaldi novel becomes my enjoyable escape-from-work writing. You see? A fiendishly clever way to outwit the inner critic!

And… a proposal to co-teach an intensive workshop on designing ritual has just landed in my in-box! I am absolutely fascinated by the idea and am excited at the notion of co-teaching with this individual. Something to seriously consider. We’ll see if we can work something out.